and she's back

It seems like I haven't known myself for months. But looking back on past writings () I'm taking advice from my 15 year old self... Who knew I'd ever need to go back there. I look back at my past and remember the things that hurt, but I was so strong and passionate and driven about the things that really struck chords with me. So why am I so apathetic now?

Maybe it's not me that's wrong but the situation. I'm somewhere I never thought I would be... is that it?

+++++++

Failure is not a death sentence. Hardly so... Failure means try again. Failure means lets rethink. Failure is not wrong, it's a sign, that something doesn't click. I've looked at this all so negatively. I've felt so angry in the pass couple of months. Why can't I motivate myself to do this work? Is there something wrong with me? NO. Something is wrong with what I've set out for. I can't be who I said I would be. I can't be who I cried over and excitedly rambled about. I can't.

I've changed.

so on a weirdly excited last note.
I leave you with Sia - "You've Changed"



thank god, I think this haze is finally lifting